What's Happened Since August 4th, 2013?

I know what you're thinking. "What's so special about 08/04/13?"

Pro football Hall of Famer and World War II Marine veteran Art Donovan died on that date. Oh, and Barack Hussein Obama (formerly known as Barry Soetoro) turned fifty-two back then.

"That's it?"

Yeah...and I retired as a copper. I first put on a badge in September of 1979; a series of injuries and surgeries plagued my career, which spanned five decades. One of those surgeries, involving metal rods, screws and my lower spine, forced me out of the job from 1999 to 2002, when I went back to work as a police officer against the wishes of Dr. Timperman, my surgeon. I'd later have a knee replaced in 2005, after a mishap at the Lexington PD pistol range (no, I didn't shoot myself) pretty much destroyed an already fragile joint. I went back to work after that one, too, defying the strong advice of ortho surgeon Dr. Jay Guth, who'd suggested I think about retiring. Problem was, I wasn't ready to call it quits.

I talked him into letting me go back to the job I loved.

I worked right up until February 14th of 2013, which was the last time I took off my uniform; I'd started having issues with the artificial joint and, according to Dr. Jay and a few medical tests, I'd worn out a part of the joint which had to be replaced.

"That's it", the affable doc and personal friend had told me after surgery, "you're done. I'm not signing off on the knee again." Jay and I had known each other outside of the medical realm, having coached travel-league baseball against each other.

Grudgingly, I put in papers for disability retirement; it was granted a few weeks before I officially retired on August 4th of 2013. I chose that date because, in 1984, that was the day I'd been sworn in at Mansfield PD, alongside Chuck Norris, Dave Nirode and Chris Brunk. Since then I've always felt a part of that particular brotherhood, and still do to this day.

Since retirement, seven years ago today, life has continued onward in ways I never could have envisioned, leaving me with some great and not-so-great experiences...and yet another scar on this body that already resembles a road map.

In 2014 I went to a place I'd always dreamed of: Pearl Harbor, Hawaii. Having a keen love of WW II history, I was able to go to the place where it all started for the United States; I got goose bumps standing on the deck of the USS Arizona memorial, above the sacred resting place of over 1,100 sailors and Marines still entombed in the sunken hulk of the ship.

That trip was courtesy of my oldest stepson, Cory Prater, who was stationed at Hickam Air Force Base while serving in the Air Force. Stacy and I had gone to see him and got the grand Oahu tour during the whirlwind two weeks we were there.

Less than two weeks after we returned I lost my 88-year-old Dad.

Seven months later I was diagnosed with kidney cancer, which had been discovered through a fluke chest x-ray, which had caught the upper part of my left kidney. June 30th, 2015, I lost half of that organ, but it had been discovered so early that I didn't require chemotherapy or radiation treatments. I get checked once a year...so far, so good.

I've gained two daughters-in-law and two grandbabies, who are my pride and joy. We love our children, but I'm here to tell you that grandchildren kicks that love up another notch.

There's nothing like it. Nothing.

Stacy and I sold our house, which I'd called 'Ram Field Ranch' because of its close proximity to Madison's football field, and bought our current place, 'Black Gold Homestead.' There's no oil in the ground here, but Tim Horton's black gold coffee flows through the coffee maker every morning.

My wife had heart valve repair surgery, a procedure in which they had to separate her sternum and stop her heart while it was being fixed. There was a lot of hard praying being done by yours truly. For weeks after she returned home, friends and family brought us an almost endless supply of pre-cooked meals; it got to the point where we had to ask that some meal deliveries be delayed because we couldn't fit anything else into our refrigerator. Stacy and I are richly blessed with the friends we have and will forever be in their debt.

On June 6th of this year I lost my wonderful mother-in-law, Retta Mellick, who I referred to as my 'Ohio mom', as my mother lives in South Carolina. Miss Retta, one of the strongest Christians I've ever known, was a loving, caring soul who never met a stranger. I miss her dearly and think of her quick wit and sense of humor often.

Sadly, I've lost some of the fine men I'd worked with through the years, veteran coppers who took the time to impart some of their law enforcement wisdom. Men like Tim McClaran, who I wrote about a few weeks ago; Dan Brant, who'd been a captain at MPD and my first watch commander there; Denny Reid, second in command at Ontario PD back in the early 1980s; Sgt. Bob Poth, 'Pappy' to so many who knew him and my training officer during my first few weeks at Mansfield. Keith Miller, with whom I'd worked at Ontario, as well as Cal Miller, OPD; Sam Wade, who'd been a part-time officer at Lexington and taught classes at North Central State College in their criminal justice program; and Harold Scott, who I loved like a brother. There's so many more that have left us and I'm sure I'm not recalling some, but they're people I'll never forget. Ever.

It's been quite the journey, these last seven years in retirement, and I wouldn't trade them for anything.

                                      Retirement reception, with some of my Mansfield PD
                                      brothers. (L-R) Dean Blamer, Keith Coleman, myself
                                      Jan Wendling, Gary Foster, Phil Messer and Mike Bammann

You Want Hot? Bulletproof Vests In August...

Bulletproof vests. I guess nowadays they call them 'ballistic' vests, or 'body armor', or 'personal protective gear.'

Back in my day, us coppers had quite a variety of terms for them, nearly all unprintable on this forum. I try to keep it rated 'PG' here. Parental Guidance...where has that gone? Might be a good topic for a future post.

Those vests sure were hell on hot days, let me tell you.

When I first started wearing one, back in 1979, bulletproof vests for coppers were rather crude, to put it mildly. Made of a material called Kevlar and fitted into a cloth carrier, you put it on over your head; they had a front panel and a back panel, with a strap down across each clavicle and four 2-inch straps from the back panel to the front, held in place by velcro. That way they were adjustable, so as to make them conform to your torso. Then you put your uniform shirt on over top of it, went out and put your life on the line.

There were a couple of problems: if you tightened the side straps too tight and weren't svelte they'd cut into your sides, showing the general public your fat rolls in the process in addition to chafing your skin. The other was, by virtue of moving around, the panels would ride up on you, until the front panel felt more like a clerical collar jammed into your Adam's apple.

So the manufacturers tried to solve the issue by adding an 'apron'-like extension to the front of the panel carrier that you tucked into your uniform pants, like a second set of shirt tails.

I can't tell you how many times I'd watch one of my co-workers unzip their pants, reach way inside and grab that apron so they could pull the vest back down where it was supposed to be. I did the same thing, too. We'd always take care to make sure we weren't in the public eye when we did that....didn't want anyone to get the wrong idea about what we were actually doing.

When we'd order our vests, usually every three years because of fabric decomposition, they came in a variety of threat levels; the higher the TL, the more protection they offered. That's protection, by the way, from handgun bullets. Our vests at that time, well...a rifle round or an ice pick would go right through them.

As time progressed, through the 80s and into the 1990s, manufacturers added side torso panels to the vests and these rectangular metal or ceramic plates that slid into the outside of the front of the vest carrier, designed to add further shielding for your sternum. Police officers, after getting shot with their vests on, were suffering from blunt force trauma; the impact of the bullet, with all that kinetic force behind it, still caused considerable damage to internal organs, though no penetration of the bullet occurred. The plates were added protection for blunt trauma.

Still, those vests saved countless thousands of police lives over the decades.

But they were, and probably still are, unbearably hot. That was one of the many reasons I preferred working night shift during my career; it was always somewhat cooler at night. Back in my early days at Mansfield PD, though, I was stuck on afternoon shift for six years. That's six years of July and August, with many sweltering days from late June and early September mixed in for good measure.
Those vests were absolutely, stiflingly torturous on smoking-hot and humid days. The A/C in the cruiser would always be cranked wide open as we'd pull the vests away from our chests, as much as we could, to allow that luxuriant, cool air access to sweat-soaked T-shirts and bare skin.

If you got stuck outside the cruiser for an extended period of time, say, to direct traffic at an accident scene, God help you. Assorted coppers tried various methods to keep cool while wearing vests, from nylon, woven mesh undershirts to not wearing the back ballistic panel. I went to the Ohio State Highway Patrol academy with a guy from Marion county who ended up getting shot in the back in a rest area. He wasn't wearing his back panel.

 He survived, but it could have ended up so much worse.

At the end of the shift in the locker room, when we'd gear down, you could see the perfect, wet outline of those vests on whatever type of shirt was worn under the vest. I learned early on to bring an extra T-shirt to change into for the trip home, the damp duty-worn shirt balled up and in my gear bag.

Then there was the smell. You've never savored the aroma of a police locker room in late August...to me, it was five times worse than a high school football locker room. We'd hang our vests on hangers, body-side out, to dry out before the next shift; most of us had two vest panel carriers so we could launder one when the stale-sweat stench started to get overpowering, though it was a pain to change out carriers.

Bulky and uncomfortable as they were, someone finally came up with the idea of a protective vest designed to be worn on the outside of the uniform shirt, which is what you're seeing now with a lot of police agencies. Lexington, the PD I worked for the last eleven years of my career, has gone to that style of vest. Officers who use them seem to like them, but I don't think I would...because I'm a throwback.

I'd go back to a hot, humid August afternoon in 1986 and wear my old bulletproof vest again.

In a heartbeat.

                                               Early 1980s bulletproof vest

The Degenerate Burglar

A very good friend and retired brother officer recently commented that he hadn't seen any new posts in awhile; this one's for you, KC.

It was early fall in 1982; warm days were giving way to crisp, chilly nights as I approached my second anniversary with the (then) Village of Ontario Police Department. Aside from the shocking car-stop shooting of fellow Patrolman David Pugh early one morning in November of 1981, nothing of great note had occurred in Ontario up to that time during my four year stint there.

 Dave, shot in the face by a felon out of Cleveland, who was a passenger in a stolen van loaded with stolen car parts, survived; the shooter, later that morning, was located and killed in a running gunfight with police.

My dayshift partner in the story I am about to tell was Ptl. Tim McClaran, who would go on to be Chief of Police in Ontario and, later, Crestline, Ohio.

Tim was a combat veteran, having served in Vietnam with the Marine Corps. He'd previously been a deputy with the Richland County Sheriff's Office before coming to Ontario; on this day, Tim would pass on a little of his investigative skill to this still-green rookie, some of which would be rather...unusual.

Around noon we'd received a report of a home burglary on Walker Lake Road, just west of the now-modified 'S' curve. The house, a brick ranch-style home, sat by itself well back from the roadway, bordered by a cornfield to the west and deep woods behind it. As we arrived we were met by an older woman, probably in her early fifties, and another we'd learn was her daughter, whom she'd called even before notifying the department of the break-in.

The woman had already checked with her lone neighbor across the street, explaining that they each kept an eye on the other's house when anyone was away. "They didn't see any cars come or go."

The interior of the home had obviously been ransacked as we looked room to room, the woman telling us that some of her husband's tools, four long guns and two chain saws were missing. She also believed some of her jewelry was gone; her jewelry box, which had a glass lid and smooth metal sides, was opened, some of its contents spread on top of the dresser on which it sat.

At that time Ontario was a 13-officer department, including the chief; we weren't large enough to have our own crime scene technicians, so each officer processed his own crime scene, taking photographs and fingerprints; major crime scenes, such as homicides, were handled by the state Bureau of Criminal Identification and Investigation.

This one, though, would be handled by us....or, rather, Tim. He took the time to explain what he was doing and why as he went. It was during this time that we both overheard a conversation between Mom, the house's occupant, and her daughter in the living room, around the corner from where we were working. It went something like this:

Mom: "Well, what's one of my bras doing out here in the living room?"

Daughter: "Uhh, Mom, I wouldn't touch that. Let the officers handle it."

Mom: (obviously not heeding her daughter's advice and picking the brassiere up) "I just don't understand why...ohh, why is it wet?"

Daughter, alarmed: "MOM! PUT IT DOWN!"

There was a hushed, short exchange between the two, followed by Mom shrieking "OH MY GOD!!"
She fairly ran, followed by her daughter, to a bathroom down the hall, where we could hear her furiously washing her hands.

Tim looked at me with knowing eyes. "The guy jerked off in that woman's bra."

I was astounded. "Why would somebody do that during a home burglary?"

"Good question. What does that tell you, other than he's a pervert?"

I thought for a moment. "Well....he was probably alone. I mean, if you were burglarizing a home with someone, that's not something you'd do, right?"

My partner smiled. "You're learning. So, nobody saw any vehicles here while the complainant was gone, meaning they had to come from the woods or through the cornfield."

I finished Tim's line of thought. "The shotguns and rifles, the tools and chainsaws, how did one guy carry all that stuff away if he was on foot?"

Smiling, the veteran copper answered. "He didn't. That stuff is hidden somewhere close by and he's gonna come back, probably after it gets dark, to pick it up."

McClaran, to this young, green patrolman, was a genius.

Using the victim's house phone (cell phones didn't exits back then), Mac, as I called him, called Chief Krauss and explained the situation; the chief agreed to call in the next shift early so we could stay on our case.

After hanging up, Tim and I went looking for the stolen loot. We found it after about 45 minutes, stacked neatly at the edge of the woods fifty yards west of the house, in an open, green tractor lane between the standing, brown cornstalks and the treeline. I was getting excited.

We checked to ensure that the two shotguns and the pair of rifles were unloaded, then put them back where they'd been hidden. "We're gonna stake out this stuff. You go back to the station and get us some extra batteries (for our portable police radios), flashlights, green coveralls (which we'd all been issued but never used), some water and maybe snack food. We might be here for awhile; I'll stay here and watch the stuff."

I must've drove 100 mph on the way to the station. Once there, the oncoming patrolmen wanted all the particulars about what Tim and I were doing but I didn't have time to explain. "Just stay out of the area so we don't spook the guy" was all I said.I also grabbed two 12 gauge pump shotguns before leaving. Stopping at a gas station, I bought water and a couple small bags of chips, then hurried back to where Tim was waiting.

We quickly slid into our coveralls, pinned on our badges, strapped on gun belts and took up a position in the cornfield, able to see the loot between the tall, unharvested stalks from where we lay.

Time crawled by. When we spoke, it was in hushed whispers; we mostly listened for the sounds of someone walking on fallen, dead leaves in the woods.

Mac remarked, "Man, I need a cigarette."

Dusk had started to set in when we heard the snapping, crackling sounds of someone making their way through the woods. "Wait until he picks the stuff up and starts to walk away", Tim whispered. "That way we can show intent to take the stolen goods."

Another thing I never would have thought of. McClaran knew his stuff.

We watched as not one, but two men emerged from the treeline in the falling darkness, cautiously looking left and right before walking directly to the piled items. As each grabbed an armful of goods and straightened up, we sprang, shotgun butts planted in our shoulders.

"POLICE! ONTHEGROUNDONTHEGROUNDONTHEGROUND NOW!"

Startled, both men hesitated before dropping what they had and laying down. We were on them quickly, cuffing both in quick successions. Immediately, one of the men started pleading.

"I'm the one you want. I broke into the house and took this stuff. He's my brother-in-law and had nothing to do with this. Please, let him go, I'll tell you whatever you want to know."

McClaran got brother-in-law up and took him a few steps away. The short of it was that he indeed didn't know what was happening; the burglar had only told him he'd 'found' some stuff while taking a walk and brother-in-law had never imagined his sister's husband would be involved in a burglary.

After taking down his information, we let him walk.

Once back on station, Tim interviewed our suspect, who confessed everything at length, however leaving one part out of his story.

Mac: "Tell us about the woman's bra."

A look of sheer horror, which quickly turned to shame, played across the suspect's face; then he started crying.

"I'm so sorry", he said tearfully. "I've been out of work for awhile, my wife and I have been fighting, and...well...I just needed some relief." The 30-something man started to sob.

The man was eventually transported to the sheriff's jail and locked up, and we tagged our evidence, putting it in the evidence room.

Later, in court, the man pled guilty as charged. Since he'd confessed to the burglary and fully cooperated, coupled with the fact that the man had no criminal history whatsoever, he was sentenced to time served while awaiting trial and placed on probation, a huge break for him.

During the rest of my career, I never heard the man's name or read it on any police reports; he'd apparently turned his life around...or moved out of the area.

Tim McClaran, from whom I would learn so much, died of lung cancer in November of 2013. Though many people didn't like him, I'll always remember Mac for the good cop that he was.

                                                                       Tim McClaran

The One Call That Still Haunts Me

I wrote this story, which was published in June, 2016 at Narratively.com. This is an actual event.

It was a slow, late-winter Sunday night in 1991; the cold, drizzling rain making the shift seem endless. My partner, Bosko, was ten years younger than I, and had been on the street for about five years. His cherubic face and sparse, dark mustache somehow didn’t fit his stocky but bull-strong form. Boz, as we called him, had an easygoing manner and was very good at the job; I always enjoyed riding in a two-man cruiser with him.

On this night we were cruising a high-crime neighborhood of Mansfield, with plenty of public housing, hoping to catch a drug dealer plying his trade on a street corner at three in the morning.

I wish that’s what would have happened.

Our cruiser’s police radio, which also monitored the city fire frequency, came to life: a rescue squad was being dispatched to an address right around the corner from where we were, for a “person choking.” As we weren’t handling any calls, Bosko and I decided to respond also, since the firehouse was a good three minutes away.

Just as we stopped in front of the home, which seemed to have light blazing from every window, the call was updated: it was an infant in trouble.

I was out the passenger-side door in a heartbeat, bypassing the two steps up to the porch. As I reached for the door it flew open and I was met by a chunky middle-aged woman, a well-worn robe draped over her long, pink nightgown. She was screaming hysterically. A mixture of tears and mascara streaked her face.

“DO SOMETHING! PLEASE DO SOMETHING!” she screamed, as she thrust an infant, wrapped in a blanket, into my arms. “HE'S NOT BREATHING!”

I looked down into that little innocent face, dried formula around his mouth whitish against the gray pallor of his skin. I’d seen eyes like his a hundred times before: half closed, staring at nothing. The baby was gone.

Pressure bands gripped my chest as I went through the motions of infant CPR, knowing it would do no good but doing it anyway, more for the woman’s sake than anything. Shortly the paramedics arrived and took control of the baby’s lifeless form; I could hear Bosko’s voice, which seemed distant as if he were at the far end of a long tunnel, as he questioned the woman who’d met me at the door. My partner had been right behind me onto the porch, but after seeing that tiny face in the blanket I’d become disconnected to events around me. Nothing else existed but that vacant face.

I had a baby boy at home the same age.

Tyler had been born two months premature, his little lungs not fully developed; he had started to show that same gray pallor as they’d worked on him in the delivery room. A life-flight helicopter had been called and Tyler was loaded aboard. I would later learn he’d stopped breathing five times during the twenty-five-minute flight to Akron Children’s Hospital.

I felt very alone as I stood in the parking lot, watching that helicopter ascend skyward with my youngest son. I’d gotten to hold Tyler for thirty seconds before the medical team had realized there was something wrong with his respiration, that he was having to work too hard to breathe. Just as they were taking him out to the helipad, a doctor informed me that Tyler’s condition was “very unstable.”

Once he arrived at Akron Children’s, an experimental treatment saved his life.

The infant in this house never had that chance.

The little boy had been robbed of life. Robbed because his mother had come home from a bar and fed him, not bothering to burp him afterwards, and then laid him on his back in the crib. The infant had aspirated his formula and choked to death while his mother lay passed out on a bed a few feet away. The screaming woman on the porch was his grandmother.

At the time of this incident, my baby boy had been released from the hospital and was on an apnea monitor at home, one that would alert us if he stopped breathing. It happened a couple of times, the loud squeal of the alarm jarring us when it sounded. Bosko knew I was on the ragged edge while working, worrying about Tyler throughout the nights, and asked about him every shift.

I told Bosko I had to go to the cruiser, his reply unheard. I was getting tunnel vision, my mind’s eye seeing Tyler’s face in that blanket.

I sat heavily in the passenger’s seat, alone, and began sobbing uncontrollably, the woman’s pain and grief becoming my own. I had come perilously close to losing my own infant, and in that moment I knew how she felt.

At some point Bosko got into the cruiser and drove us to a park, where we sat silently until I’d regained my composure, the call we’d just finished having obliterated that hard ‘shell’ that all police officers have to form in order to maintain sanity.

Bosko and I never spoke of my emotional breakdown, an event that had never happened before in my 31- year career, and never did again.

That night left me with scars, emotional wounds that have never quite fully healed. Even now, decades later in retirement, I still think of that little boy, often wondering what would have become of him. I look at Tyler and see the man he has become, sometimes also seeing that baby’s face in the blanket, trying to imagine what he might have looked like or what path he would have taken in life. I imagine, too, that somehow he knows there is an old policeman that keeps a place for him inside.

                                            Original artwork by Sishir Bommakanti

A Rare Trait Nowadays

Benjamin Franklin, one of the signatories of the Declaration of Independence, once said, "Honesty is the best policy". I'm not sure in what context he made that statement, but who can disagree with logic of that nature? Even the Ten Commandments says that we shall not bear false witness....which means lie. They also admonish theft, among other things.

Since ol' Ben walked this earth, much has changed. He wouldn't recognize the America we live in today, in this pandemic-induce trampling of our Constitutional rights era.

With that being said, I'm going to tell you a feel-good story, which should be a refreshing change from the conflict-laden news cycles trumpeting daily from our televisions.

I ran out to a big-box outlet store earlier to pick up bagged mulch, as it'll soon be time to plant flowers in the landscaping and I want to be ready. As I loaded up what I needed, my mind was occupied by an assortment of thoughts: ' the Maytag repairman is due at our place between 2PM and 4PM; do I need to pick up dog food for Roscoe? Geez, I sure hope this drizzly, rainy weather breaks soon so I can steal away for a few hours to go metal detecting; hey, gas is up to $1.99 a gallon.... '

After finishing loading, I headed towards home, those thoughts still ricocheting off the inside of my skull even as I walked into the Circle K a mile from the house.

The clerk, a young guy behind the hanging plexiglas screen at the register, asked what I needed.

"One can of Skoal Extra-Mint pouches, please."

"Yes sir, coming right up..."

I withdrew the folded bills from my pocket, my mind still wondering if I needed to stop and get dog food. I handed the clerk a $5 bill as he pushed the requested product towards me on the counter top. The youngster rang up my purchase, rattling coins in the coin return signaling it completion. As I pocketed them, I told the employee to have a great day and walked away.

"SIR! SIR! Your change!"

I turned and saw him holding fifteen dollars in five dollar bills, arm extended toward me.

I had given him a twenty instead of a five! 

My preoccupation had nearly cost me. How easily could he have just pocketed that $15 ?

As I collected the bills, I snatched one and handed it back to him. "This is for your honesty."

The clerk thanked me as I smiled inside, knowing that his mother had raised him right and he had just had what should be a tenet of our society reinforced.

Honesty is, indeed, a virtue.

Repost: Dear Private Citizen

In honor of my brothers and sisters still on the job, I thought I'd re-post a piece I wrote four years ago.

DEAR PRIVATE CITIZEN

Unless you wear a badge, have worn a badge, have a spouse, parent, son, daughter, brother, sister, aunt or uncle who has worn or is wearing a badge....you have no idea what being a law enforcement officer is about.

You see us sitting in a cruiser, stationary in a park with our head down. 'Sleeping', you think; in reality we are probably working on finishing a report.

You see us cruising your neighborhood time and again. 'Overpaid and wasting the taxpayers' gas money', you think; in reality we may be looking for a lost child, or the suspect in a home burglary that happened the next street over just a few minutes before.

You see us walking through bars or driving through a liquor establishment's parking lot. 'Fishing for drunks and harassing patrons', you think; in reality we're looking for trouble, which often involves alcohol, or providing an extra presence because of the robbery of a patron the week before in that very same lot.

You see two, maybe three cruisers parked at a restaurant or coffee shop. 'Goofing off', you think; in reality we finally had a lull in the never-ending stream of calls for service for the first time during our shift and are wolfing down a meal. Maybe only a partial meal, because we are subject to being called upon to respond to an incident at any moment, lunch time or not.

You see us alongside the road on a car stop, talking to a motorist. 'Trying to make that ticket quota', you think; in reality we may be assisting someone with vehicle trouble, giving directions, or handling a road rage incident, which is becoming more frequent with every passing day.

You see us at high school basketball or football games working security, leaning against a wall or fence. 'Lazy', you think; in reality we may be combating a bad back, bad knee or bad hip, and leaning against something solid may be the only way to get some semblance of relief. Bad backs, hips and knees are an affliction most cops develop during years on the job.

You see us on foot patrol in a downtown area, constantly going in and out of shops and businesses. 'Shopping on the job', you think; in reality we're building relationships and trust with the shop owners.

You see us talking to a group of young people on a basketball court in a park or on a street corner. 'Harassing those kids', you think; in reality we're trying to make a difference in young lives, trying to show today's youth that we, the police, are not the enemy, and that they alone have the ability to choose what path in life they will take.

It's called 'community-based policing'. You get to know the people you serve and protect so that they don't only see you when something bad happens. The officers become familiar faces in the neighborhood.

What you, the private citizen, don't see on a daily basis is the worst of humanity. You don't see the death, the despair that's bad enough to make someone want to end their life. You don't see the abused children, covered with bites from bedbugs and living amidst animal feces while their parent is out drinking or smoking crack, leaving the kids to fend for themselves.

You don't see us sitting in the cruiser, crying, because we just handled a call involving the death of an infant due to neglect. We're crying because we have an infant at home the same age. You don't see us when we're out at 0300 hours on the most bitterly frigid night of winter, with the wind chill at -20 degrees; we’re looking for the dementia-afflicted elderly woman who wandered out of her home, clad only in a night gown. We are trying to find her before frostbite and hypothermia end her life.

You don't see the inner rage when one of your brothers or sisters runs afoul of the law, knowing that, once again, the media and public opinion will paint you all with the broad brush of 'dirty cops'.

You don't see the broken relationships caused by the pressures of the job. It takes a very special individual to be the spouse of a police officer, someone with patience and understanding, someone who knows they are the rock on which we lean.

You don't see the officers absent from Christmas and Thanksgiving family gatherings because they had to work. You don't see us at our kids' sporting events and school plays because of the job.

You don't see or feel the fear and apprehension when we get sent to a call involving a gun and someone who has either already used it or fully intends to, knowing that we, the police, have to respond. There's no one else, no others but those of us who are sworn to protect the public, knowing we could lose our lives in the process of apprehending the offender.

You don't see us grieving at the loss of yet another brother or sister of the badge, wondering if maybe, just maybe, our time will be next.

You're not there at 0400 hours, knocking on the door of a home and knowing you are about to devastate the family inside by telling them their only son, a fifteen-year-old who had sneaked out of the home after his parents had gone to bed, had been killed in a traffic crash. You also weren't there two hours earlier, investigating that accident in the pouring rain, having seen that son's mangled, unrecognizable form.

You haven't seen the body crushed flat by heavy equipment in an industrial accident, the victim's internal organs lying on the shop floor beside him because the sheer weight of the machinery blew them out of his abdomen; the old farmer who hung himself in his barn at sunrise because he thought he had cancer; the young teen on foot who decided to try to cross the tracks ahead of a freight train on a dare... and lost. You didn't watch the distraught husband, locked in his car, shoot himself in the head while looking you straight in the eye, all because his wife had left him for another man after the victim had been diagnosed with a terminal disease.

You didn't see the woman, stabbed thirty-three times by her enraged boyfriend, lying dead in a room whose walls looked as if they'd been splattered with red paint...while her three young children were sleeping downstairs on a bare wood floor on Thanksgiving morning.

You, dear citizens, weren't there to witness those terrible events, those tragic incidents.

We were.

We pay a price every day for having been there. Sometimes, for some of us, for the rest of our days on this earth.

So, the next time you see a police officer on duty, try not to jump to conclusions. Think about what you haven't seen.

...and what we have.

The Super Cops

One of the byproducts of this China virus lockdown, foisted on us by government at every level and resulting in 'public service' message bombardment by the Hollywood elite (in their minds, not mine), is that I've watched more television and surfed more interwebs than normal.

That's how I happened across a movie I hadn't seen in decades: 'The Super Cops'.

It's the (mostly) true story of a couple of rookie coppers from back in the early '70s, Dave Greenberg and Bobby Hantz, played by Ron Leibman and David Selby, respectively; the film was based on the book by the same name...which I read my sophomore year in high school. I saw the flick when it was first released in theaters.

Greenberg and Hantz were, to say the least, unconventional in their methods, often disguising themselves as street bums or public utility workers in order to make drug collars, even working cases on their days off...without approval of police brass. As they piled up arrests and convictions they also became thorns in the sides of supervisors and drug detectives but, once a drug lord contracted three hit men from Detroit to kill them because of how badly they'd impacted their precinct's dope business (the duo were tipped off by several informants and they actually arrested the hired killers), did the administrative types back off.

There were allegations of 'Batman and Robin', so named by the precinct's citizenry, being dirty cops; NYPD's Internal Affairs division tried, unsuccessfully, to draw them into a payoff. scheme.

All in all, by today's standards, it was a pretty lame-and-tame movie. The book was better.

Greenberg retired from the police department in 1975, then served as an assemblyman (city councilman) in 1978; however, he was twice convicted of mail and wire fraud and ended up in prison. Hantz was arrested on a drug charge in the Bahamas while on vacation and agreed to resign his commission.

Not-so-super cops, after all.

The film got me to thinking about the term 'super cops', and some of the men and women I worked with over the five decades I wore a badge (1979 to 2013). The truth is, the general public is largely ignorant as to what a 'super cop' really is; by my humble definition, an extraordinary policeman is someone you could learn from, who did things by the book and led by example, never asking those under his command to do things he or she would not. The very first name I thought of was a man I worked for even before I became a certified police officer.

Lieutenant J.D. 'Jack' Moore of the Ohio State Highway Patrol.

Sometime in the mid-70s, while I was visiting my then-girlfriend at her parents' home on Mansfield's northeast edge, we heard numerous sirens approaching the neighborhood from what seemed like all points of the compass, shutting down a couple of streets over from where we were. The cop gene, seedling that it was in my head, led me to seek out the commotion; it was a deranged young man armed with a .30 caliber rifle, standing shirtless in his front yard.

Law enforcement had blocked off the street, of course, but I had binoculars in my white 1974 AMC Gremlin and made use of them; I was probably 75 yards away. Someone with a badge was trying to talk to the disturbed man through a bull horn from behind the cover of a cruiser and I could hear the guy yelling back at the top of his lungs, though I couldn't make out his words.

A few minutes later I see a state patrol cruiser pull up on the opposite end of the street from where I was; the state patrolman (they weren't 'troopers' back then) spoke to a couple other uniforms, took off his campaign hat and walked towards the armed man, stopping in the street beside a parked car. The man with the rifle, I'd later learn, only wanted to speak to this particular OSP officer, and he shuffled to the other side of the same car, .30 cal carbine planted on his hip, pointing skyward.

Things seemed to calm down at that point as they talked, but suddenly this guy whips the rifle down, trying to get a bead on the state patrolman, the officer ducking and shuffling around the car, trying to keep it between him and the man. Coppers started screaming at the guy to put his gun down (I'll forego the accompanying profanity) and he finally did. The man was taken into custody without further incident.

That state patrol officer had been Mansfield post commander Moore. I will never, for the rest of my life, forget watching him face down an armed man without even drawing his sidearm.

As fate would have it, I worked for Lt. Moore at the Mansfield post several months later as a cadet dispatcher; that's someone who works the radio at post-level and eventually goes to the OSHP academy in Columbus to become a full-fledged trooper. How that turned out is another story in itself.

I found Jack Moore to be a fair, honest man, one who treated me more as an equal than the lowest subordinate. Three times a week, when working day shift, Jack would snatch me from dispatch and take me to run with him at the now-gone Naval Reserve center on Ashland Rd, to be followed by a couple of hot dogs at Weiner King on Lexington Avenue. The man loved that place and he would always pay for my lunch no matter how much I objected.

J.D. Moore, who died on duty of a heart attack in 1981, was a super cop in my book. We need more like him in today's world.